I felt how they despised and made fun of me as they called me Drama Queen..
I felt it in my entire being, that these words were written on my graduation baloon&plate with a condescending meaning.
This label was put on me with the same intention as when their eyes rolled back as I moved through my emotions.
I’ve always felt different
I’ve never really felt as if I belonged
I never felt truly accepted for who I was
I felt ashamed for being me
When I got angry to my core
When I felt the tears well up
When I laughed uncontrolably
When I allowed my vulnerability to surface
When I stood my ground
When I fought back
When I expressed what I was going through
Many of us have parents who told us to:
Stop crying
Don’t be angry
Don’t feel bad
Don’t be sad
No one likes a cry baby
Don’t laugh too loud
Sccchhhhh stop crying
Be a man, stop whining
Good girls don’t yell
🤢 This literally makes me sick..
This is a huge reason why many of us today think and feel that we’re not supposed to FEEL any of these emotions labeled as ”bad” or ”too much”.
And since these feelings have been stated as WRONG
And we’ve been made WRONG for feeling this way
We come to believe that there’s something WRONG with us, as we’re actually feeling these feelings.
This keeps us all suffocating our emotions
Putting layers ontop of layers to hide our authentic expression, our real emotions.
To avoid being made Wrong/Shamed/Blamed/Made fun of
How do you expect to feel deep true love, joy and happiness if you’re not allowing yourself to feel anger, sadness or frustration? These are all emotions - and they’re all valid.
Today I know that being able to FEEL my feelings and express them in a healthy, authentic and raw way is one of my greatest strengths and skills.
To all my Drama Queens - I see you & I Love You 👑